let me rant and rave again. i might get a little farfetched.
-rant starts-
what, has this got to do with me at all?
you classified this as LOVE, not me.
YOU thought this was LOVE. i told you that was a really strong word. like hate. you continued using that word like nobody's business.
YOU sent those stupid messages declaring your "love" for her. those that got her phone confiscated.
YOU practically told the entire world by posting those dumb lovey dovey messages on her friendster.
then someone found out about you and her.
you sms-ed me.
"come online now."
what, its MY fault?
i went online. i humoured you.
YOU practically accused me of telling that person!
YOU said that something i told that person must have hinted to her about you and that girl.(lets call her A).
I DIDNT BREATHE A SINGLE WORD TO HER!
she only knew that A liked someone and that someone liked her back. or something like that.
YOU think you're SOOOOO popular, EVERYBODY wants to know about your relationship with A.
well wake up.
its not LOVE, like you call it. A agreed with me that it wasnt LOVE, fyi. SHE KNEW THIS WAS SIMPLE PUPPY LOVE THAT WOULDNT LAST.
i bet you thought it was forever. date, get married, have kids, build a happy family, you thought about all that didnt you.
and i scolded you on msn the next day after talking to that person who found out.
you said sorry, yeah. whatever. like that would help.
i'm the type of person who holds on to grudges, even if it doesnt do me good.
i know im supposed to forgive you cos thats what the bible teaches us, but you have pissed me off real bad.
i wasted my TIME. MONEY.(really did) saliva. for the pair of you. at least A's grateful.
you?
and after saying sorry(which was pratically useless) to me, you stop talking to me at all.
after i somewhat "solved" your crisis, you ignored me. i havent told you about my ah ma.
you havent been a friend.
and today, you sms me.
you and her, its over.
you think i care now?
you say "its not as painful as i expected" (edited grammar)
so? its lame puppy love.
you thought it was what.
TRUE LOVE?
i want to laugh in front you.
you're 4 years older than me.
you thought you were old enough, mature enough to handle a serious relationship, but you're not.
she's not old enough either. she's still a growing, learning-about-the-world teenager.
you thought what.
your future wife? whatever.
i wash my hands off you.
you have lectured me, scolded me, judged me, used me, and then pushed me to a corner like trash. and now, i hope im useless to you.
dont come and bother me.
if really much better without you, you know.
-rant stop-
even if he didnt push aside like trash, thats certainly how i felt he was treating me. everything typed up there is how i felt things were going, it might not have been intentional. but whatever.
Thursday, November 15, 2007