some people aint meant to be forgiven. and i aint gonna forgive you unless you show me you deserve it.
told my mum abt it. :D i love my family cos i can tell my parents almost everything. YAY MUMMY I LOVE YOU! <3
prayed to God Almighty! being able to turn to God and being able to put your trust in him is such a wonderful thing. im praying that he'll help me to forgive him. the Lord said to love your ememies. if he slaps you on the right, turn and let him slap on the left too. thats how great our Lord is. he's merciful and forgiving. despite me turning away from him countless times and doubting him, he still loves me and welcomes me back into his arms even after i sin. how good our God is. :D
okay. i said i'd never forgive him but im a Christ-follower and i want to be Christ-like and Jesus will forgive him so i want to. wednesday has music. i dont know what to do. sigh. pray. yep.
i felt so much for at peace with myself and the world after praying, and listening to the various songs, as seen on my blog :D it helped loads. no more f-words. or any other vulgarities. God wouldnt like it. and God is number one. :D
yay. tomorrow going for movie with huafei shannen claudia uchan liwei some other guys? huafei paying for movie! my birthday present whattttttt. nicole liwei ivan buying the dog form mini toons for me! shannen bought black hairband and other trinkets.
i love my friends. esp shannen! she was pretty worked up when i told her about my issue. and leon! he prayed for me :D yay thanks grand dad! nicole ah...not much help cos she kept on teasing me! Zzz. i'd much rather continue to be SISTER eliada, the nun. :D thanks to jj ivan shaun for telling me stuff.
shaun was trying to help him but i cant forgive him yet. im still worked up about it. when i think of it i still get angry. no sincerity. no effort. some stupid letter wont help matters. and please, brush up on your grammar and vocab and tense. if i dont know how to express myself properly in chinese i wont torture your eyes with that horrible chinese.
it still sucks, and i've not gotten over it.
they say time heals everything. with time and the help of God, i hope to forgive and forget.
harbouring a grudge doesnt help matters.
i quote huafei, who quoted ms tan chye i : having a friend is better than having an ememy.(in chinese). i wouldnt listen to him but it makes sense. thanks to huafei too! :D for the movie and helping me get less angry. heh. okay i got to go eat! im gonna sleep real early tonight so i can slumber away and wake up real late and be all refreshed!
SPIDEY 3 tomorrow!
Monday, April 30, 2007