i've been dreaming about very random things the past two days. i'd rather dream about other things. in fact i tried to dream of other things. maybe i have to not try to dream about it then i will dream about it.
what happened? oh yeah learning carnival. the best part was doing the esix cheer during the break before we went to the science centre, screaming until i ran out of breath, but i still kept screaming anyway. the small group of us practically were louder than all the classes when they did their cheers. imagine if the entire esix were there. the canteen would have collasped. ahh. good times those days were.
lit fiesta was not bad. i didnt like 2e4's cos it was on ballet, and their ballet... alright i know the plot isnt really like concentrating on the ballet but still. they were barely believeable. am sorry but im very very particular about these things. i get very agitated. actually most of the lower sec skits didnt really interest me. most didnt exactly have originality. i liked the upper secs. maybe cos the upper secs have more experience also. yup.
i liked watching catch me if you can. the guy is really really smart. and bonus points cos there was leonardo dicaprio XD and then tom hanks said the f word. coolness. everyone was like whoa. obviously the teachers conveniently forgot to censor it. BAHAHA.
anything else? science centre was fine. snow city, tanya and shannen enjoyed annoying me. omni theatre made me real giddy, but the film was okay i guess. i saw quite a few people sleeping. tsk. oh i didnt really like national museum cos the guy that spoke to us...his tome was very patronising can. he talked to us as if we'd already made a fool of ourselves or spoilt the companion thing. Zzz
oh and yay, going sydney. i think i need to buy more clothes. XD have to beg mum to bring me out haha. OH OH im going out with my parents on 31st to watch the chronicles of narnia: prince caspian. so amazing.
tomorrow is kyle and melanie's birthdays! as well as my parents' anniversary. very very cool. need to buy mel's present.
haha i know my thoughts arent very organised pardon me, i just want to dump everything here.
having tuition later. sian. its chinese.. so... haha. you can tell im not very enthusiastic.
i want to watch made of honour, and buy the forever 21 dark grey dress and cotton on shirt. 38 and 40 bucks respectively. sian lah how am i supposed to save all that cash. i cant starve myself to save. i'd die. Zzz. maybe i'll just get my dad to buy me a men's shirt so i dont have to buy the cotton on shirt. oh well.
okay so everything i've recently been thinking about basically goes against all that i've ever believed in. what if i die tomorrow. what if i never get to experience this. i ask God, tell me what to do. but im too preoccupied with my insecurities that i probably dont listen the the small still voice which will tell me what to do. my brain's just really messed up with all these hormones. i want to wait, but i dont even know if i can hold out. this sort of feeling hurts a whole lot. i have to keep telling myself i dont want this.
you. i dont think you'll read this. still, i'd like to really slap your face and make you wake up. jerk. and you. b*tch. you two can go die together. ugh i need to keep reminding myself that im in no position to judge. God will judge you.
okay i think i've vomitted out everything i wanted to say haha.
Monday, May 19, 2008