this week is extremely shittified, dont exactly care that that that word doesnt exsist. i failed chem, along with a maths, and chinese. i'm really mad about chinese cos if i'd just studied harder i'd have passed. yes i do study you know. only for chinese. and the others when err. i feel like it.
i beginning to think i really might have some form of depression. or maybe im biopolaric. or something. today was almost -breaking-down-in-school day. aldskjncfofeof dnw dnw dnw dnw dnw dnw dnw dnw to cry in school.
yesterday, andrew didn't come for tuition then my tuition teacher said she was going to "terminate" him lol because his english was fine and he had to concentrate on his other subjects. (if you dont actually know what this means to me dont assume anything kthx)
anyway today during history i overheard dickson, ivan and titus trying to explain the story of Jesus' birth to hanting. it was super hilarious and got me out of think too much for a while. hanting was all sorts of questions which had us smacking our foreheads in disbelief. he didnt understand us and he thought that Jesus went into Mary's body or something and hafter we told him mary was a virgin he was like 'huh? then still got give birth to who?' super exasperated but it was funny. after that hanting was like eeyur i dont want to ask already all you christians later scold me. HAHA namely dickson, titus, myself and clement who joined later on.
it was because of that, that i took out my Bible which i had been meaning to read if i had spare time (which is none). so i read the passages that im supposed to read this sunday for sunday school and for the 1st and 2nd services in october. then when i was reading matthew 6:16-34 it was like God was telling me not to worry about the future. very comforting but ): ): i didnt remember it later on and i teared up after school when i was watching 3e4 prepare for the auditions.
i need to dance. it's more like therapy than anything. i also need to do my quiet time everyday. i need his grace and his strength and love to help me now, more than ever.
dammit im going to miss you so much. and i dont even know if i've gotten over him, really and truely over him. does this make me a bad person ._.
But seek first his kingdom and his righteous, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
i need to honour God, then he will subsequently honour me as well.
pray pray pray!
i baba my chatgasm girls. the azn thrd cracks me up so much even though i dont really post in the thread a lot. heck, i dont even post in the boards a lot. i'd take really really long to reach like ultimate fan or something lol.
so, yeah. g'night.
Wednesday, August 20, 2008