If you don't already know...

Grandma just went back to heaven on Wednesday.

Cried on Wed, I think I might again on Sunday when the cremation takes place. Rargh don't want to because I know 2nd/3rd aunt will be probably be wailing and howling and screaming.

Yesterday the pastor from Bartley Christian Church was praying after everything and I felt so weird cos he was focusing on her death and stuff and I didn't want to cry and all that shit

so I started thinking of how it'll be when I die and I see her again but that made me want to cry too LOL.

Okay anyway. After today's wake there'll be 2 days left!

I don't think I'll do a five day thing for mum/dad next time, so exhausting. I know we did this so Uncle David and Auntie Vera would be able to come back in time.

I don't know the purpose of this post, really. But if you read this feel free to come and visit me till Sat haha, it's tiring having to make polite conversation with the adults all the time.