You know that feeling when you feel like you're not as important to a friend as that friend is to you? Yeah well. Times like this I tell myself it can't be helped and I have to remember many human/earthly relationships don't last and I'll always have God to lean and reply on, but it diesn't work all the time.
I have lotsa pictures on my wall and just now I was looking at them and missing people I haven't seen for like, 17 days? And um, 2 days lol.
Sometimes I wonder how my parents can stand not seeing friends for so long. Sometimes I hear about their friends (especially my mum, dad's kinda a loner lol) and I really don't understand how she can take it, not seeing a best friend for years on end.
I mean she has new friends and stuff, but I dunno maybe that's the thing about time and relationships and changing lifestyles. I don't want my kids and work to change things ):
On a unrelated topic, I think my work performance has gone up! Whee haha thanks to this fasting thing~ But this isn't about that, it's about God, which I'm kinda disappointed with cos every time I want to read the Bible or something somehow I make excuses and end up not really doing it properly or not doing it at all.
But any improvement in my life is all thanks to Him, really. I can't imagine doing this all on my own.
I've a to-do list written out and determined to finish 8/9 of them! And start on the last one.
And then tuition at the cousin's house. I'm stumped as to how to mark her composition ):
I bought a Diana F+ camera yesterday O:
It's limited edition!!! The box says "Diana F+ clone: Qing Hua" The top of the camera and the flash is covered in pretty blue cheena flowers.
Set my wallet back by 230 buckssssssssssss
Yesterday we (Yinshuang/Joseph/Xing Yan/me) went to the Mint Museum of Toys and the Philatelic Museum for this group assignment (which is totally weird cos it's Professional Development and what has museums got to do with that?)
And the Philatelic Museum's near Funan, so I asked Yinshuang if she wanted to go, since she's been wanting a camera for the longest time, and I told her to go to John 3:16 (Uncle Richard Gan's camera shop, <3) cos their service is like awesome but then she went on a Sunday and they're closed on Sundays oops.
Yeah and we're pretty busy with school now so when's the next time we get to go out anyway? So we went and the Diana was calling my nameeeeeeee
Uncle Richard wasn't around which is pretty normal I guess and Samuel his son was busy so this guy called Daniel introduced the Canon G12 to Yinshuang which is like compact on its way to a dslr haha. It's a really good camera, better than mine sigh but obviously more expensive too haha
Yeah and I saw the Diana. Okay so at first it was 250, but a previous customer had lokked at it too and torn the box a little cos he/she was trying to open it the wrong way = =
So I asked if he could give me a better price for that heehee and wheeeeee lowered to 230!
Yinshuang also got the G12 haha.
So now I have very little money left. Need a job during the hols and can CNY come soon I want some money.
But then some of my Dad's side relatives aren't celebrating CNY cos of my Grandmother's passing last Aug. Gotta find friends whose houses are open LOL so cheapo oops
Going to buy cheap film and then test it out, then take pictures of my grandparents and other things during CNY! The pictures are gonna be so oriental and vintage-y whee so exciting
Goodbyeeeee cos I told myself when I finish my work I can go out and find film! So must finish by today and then go on Friday after the field trip haha :D
Tuesday, January 18, 2011feelings/Diana/celebrations