gosh i'm wide awake, so you can kindly shove off now.
i don't know, but i think i've finally woken up, and i'm out from this horrible yet beautiful dream which gives me all these false illusions. it's those kind of dreams where i just get engulfed deeper and deeper, and i'm gasping for air, but now, finally, i'm wide awake. my eyes are wide open, i don't even need my specs to see what truly lies before me, and frankly, it isn't as beautiful as the dream. now i know dreams can't turn into reality. dreams are a bed of roses, reality is a slap in the face.
besides, i promised myself i'd wait. so if you're still there after my long wait, and the prospects become brighter, maybe, just maybe, we could be.
just not now.
i don't know if those feelings as stated above will change in the next couple of minutes, hours, days, weeks, or months, but that is exactly what i feel now. and that's all that matters.
hello world! i finally feel sane! wish me luck, peace, faith. i'm praying for myself.
Let Go, Let God.
Friday, May 02, 2008