grandma's back, but in a wheelchair. either it's still painful or she refuses to walk. she's like, scarred. scared when the nurses were helping her change when she was in the hospital. now... i don't know what's gonna happen because she can't walk so it's really difficult for the maid to help her bathe and go to the toilet etc. very frustrating. might have to go to a nursing home, plus don't know if the maid can cope cos even when she transfers my grandma from the bed to the wheelchair grandma's already so scared. then grandma will also make a lot of noise and keep saying she can't walk.

i don't want her to gooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo. even though i lost my own room when she came and she scolds the tv sometimes and when i turn over in bed and she's not sleeping she'll think there's a rat/lizard or something crawling up there on the wall and give a small yelp sometimes cos she's surprised. i actually missed that while she was at the hospital.

anyway if she goes the maid will go and then i'll have to start helping with housework and all that. and no more home cooked dinners cos mum is v busy nowadays and dad works at clementi so when he comes back it'll be too late to cook.

so yeah. don't know what's to happen in 2009. i guess i'll just really have to buck up and do my job(study) properly. and get like 10 or something for Os.

and i really have to depend on God more. and do my qt everyday. won't be able to get through the year without him lah.

okay i'm not totally depressed i just feel weird.

yesterday and today is like a difference of one year but it just really felt like nothing more than an ordinary day to me.

happy new year to you lor. lol.

yiwei i updated hoho are you satisfied!

and chingmay i know can. it is not susah to find out the meaning of susah. HOHO.