gah. many things are happening. i feel so powerless. God, please help me.

i hate talking to my cousin who FAILED HIS ENGLISH AND HE IS IN PRIMARY 3.

i was talking to him AND HE WASN'T LISTENING GO AHEAD AND DIE OR RETAIN IN P6 WHY DONT YOU.

his brother too.

they think they're so smart and high and mighty.

but honestly i am worried for him and his brother. it is such a high percentage of a possibility of them under performing. oh wait, they already are.

you're only supposed to fail in secondary school! okay not really but failing in secondary school is more common than in primary school.

oh and the older one in p4 wants to go to raffles. HAH, with a band 3/2? dream on. you're smart, yes, but not that smart. plus the laziness will get you nowhere. well i am lazy too but i never wanted to go to RGS.

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okay that wasn't all that i wanted to say. but they really pissed me off.

the korean kiddos are so cute. church makes me happy.

some people make me sad, the disappointed, then furious, then sad again. i have no inkling of what devices to employ to help them. it's just baffling.

i am so so tired.

can't someone else be the strong one now? i want my own chance to crumble but sometimes it feels as if no one will come help me because they all have their own problems. i know a few will, like i would for them, but the others? can i ever help? can i ever trust that they will be okay if i simply don't care?

the recent minimal contact with you caused something to happen. it scares me.

yeah i pretty much feel powerless.

with great power comes great responsibility. i have no power but a lot of responsibilities. it ain't fair. but that's life for you.

DOES ANY OTHER MORTAL SOUL FEEL THE WAY I DO?

because i feel alone. and lonely. both.

before all this sadness and emotion i saw a cutie on the bus today. HAH. he was sleeping and it was cute.

the end. i will be fine as i usually will be.