pretty good to be back.
happy new year, everyone! i hope you had a fun time counting down, etc etc
darn i miss the akha kids ):
somehow eveything feels kinda dull now. there's no passion. or at least that's in my opinion? hopefully mum/dad have the money to let me go this year!
oh and i just found out dad's coming back for a month. no, less than a month. back on the 2nd/3rd of feb and leaving on the 28th. sucks. don't understand why they want him to go back so fast. HE HAS A FAMILY HERE DAMMIT. HIS MOTHER IS WAITING FOR HIM TO COME BACK YOU HEARTLESS CRUEL PEOPLE.
okay. end of rant.
anyway another rant coming up. during the youth camp i called the maid to check up on her and she told me my cousin scolded her. i didn't really understand why though. and i just found out that she scolded the maid because the doctor said my grandmother didn't get enough food.
LIKE WTH? please get your facts straight first before accusing anyone of not giving our grandmother food can?! i don't know what happened to my grandmother, i didn't get the chance to ask the doctor, but still, how can you scold the maid? besides we're always telling her not to give grandma too much food cos she's old and old people don't really need that much food.
i was so pissed off becuase she doesn't have a clue as to what it's like to be taking care of my grandma. i mean even i don't know what it's like. it's so tough on the maid now, to be taking care of someone that can't stand, can't walk, and when you try and move her to get her to sit/on the wheelchair/anything else she screams and tries to hit you? and you scold her? what if she decides to quit? where are you going to find a maid that loves grandma so much?
okay i probably don't make much sense here but i'm still really mad at her. if you think it's so simple try taking care of her then. you won't last a day. or make that 5 hours. pfft. anyway it's not like i see her visiting grandma now.
and i'm so pissed at my other aunts who don't come and visit grandma like hello is it that difficult to just take a bus down to see your poor mother? shame on you. only my biggest aunt comes and she stays in chua chu kang like hello the rest of you stay nearby like hougang = =
my youngest aunt comes too but not as frequently. and she makes all these annoying comments and made my mother almost feel bad for going to canada when grandma was still in the hospital.
i think my mum's a fabulous daughter-in-law okay. none of the kids took their mother down to see the doc even when they could just simply cab down. why do you have to wait for your husband to come home? then should my mum wait for dad to come home form rwanda. wahlao. mum also sent grandma to the hospital. she didn't even eat dinner.
suddenly i can't stand them. it's so annoying!!!
AND WHERE ARE THE GRANDCHILDREN?! my grandma has great grandchildren but only her oldest daughter and son come and visit her more regularly when the maid has her off days.
omg man seriously.
okay okay okay okay. cool down.
my grandmother's starting to talk now so i think i better get off the comp before she starts making too much noise, because then none of us would get any sleep tonight.
hmm on a slightly better note my uncle says my grandma's waiting for my dad to come back and see her. my mum also asked her multiple times if she was waiting her him to come back and her answer was always a smile and a nod. today i asked her myself and she nodded and went "mmm".
so i suppose it's true? i hate seeing her suffer like this. it's worse than before. is it bad for me to want her to go to heaven asap? sometimes i think it is and sometimes i think it's not.
oh well. bye.
Monday, January 04, 2010rant.