bah.

our lovely Mrs Teo showed everyone's marks to everyone else during E Math today. how nice. even to those who got an A1, she told most of them they should get higher. of course when she came to me she said she was very disappointed, like i cared, and she said "across the board, ALL your teachers are disappointed with you." she also said something like i bet your parents are disappointed too.

she said it to the entire class! wow! i have never met a teacher like her, seriously. all other teachers will talk to you privately and they never say such cutting comments. even if they did say something about your parents they'd only ask if our parents said anything, or if they scolded you, etc. unless you scored a pretty high A1, she'd say something like "you should aim higher" or "you should be getting higher than this"

she even told someone who got a very decent B4 "i'm very disappointed", which is total bull. okay, so maybe the person could have done better, but did you really need to say such a thing? couldn't you have said it to the person privately? her lack of insesnsitivity is appalling.

i am perfectly aware that i haven't exactly been the best student i could have been, but i wonder, if i had passed with a B4, would she have used similar words to talk to me as compared to me getting an E8? afterall, she did tell the person with the B4 that she was disappointed. i really wonder.

i failed one less subject in the end year exams as compared to the mid year exams. that's an improvement, although i know that if i'd put in more effort i wouldn't be receiving these lousy results. still, she has no right to say these things. if i were another person, maybe my self-confidence would plumment and i'd score even lower for future tests. i'm kind of tempted to do that but that wouldn't benefit me in any way, so i off in the other direction - to do so well that her jaw would drop. i have a ~long way to go~(LOL CLICK REFERNCE FROM NOWHERE) but i ain't gonna give up. i have several months to go to the O levels. if my brother could fail more badly than me when he was secondary three, and still get an aggregate of 18 in his Os, i can do the same. all i have to do is really, really, just work.

i still disagree with mrs teo's way of 'motivating us'. her tone is rude, and even during normal lessons she speaks to people (mainly me, because i fail to do her homework) in a condescending manner. she also spoke of polytecnics in a patronising way, and when i asked "go to poly very bad meh?" she changed her tone and said more and more people with low aggregates were going to polys.

anyway, when she mentioned my parents i started to get really pissed off to the max. my parents haven't even said anything! (only my mum because i didn't see my dad yesterday so i never got the chance to tell him) she just told me to increase tuition lessons if the need arose. sure she's disappointed but she was kinda prepared cos i was like "mum i'll fail A math anyway so i prepare for the re-exams can?" before the A math paper. mrs teo has no right to comment on my parents, imho.(in my honest opinion)

plus i dont think all the teachers are disappointed with me. i passed biology when i failed it during the mid years and i passed history better too. i think i got one mark lower for ss though, but ms tan gim hua was pretty strict. i passed higher chinese too, with the help of the composition question being similar to one i had done previously during chinese tuition, thanks the Lord for that! ;D

not satisfied with english, my composition dropped from the test mark of 24/30 to 18/30. but its hard to say with compos i guess. luckily my situational saved me with a 23/30. comprehension could have been better, along with my summary as well. i found out i got a 29/40 for my oral, and i dont know why! D: anyway i can't remember cos it was pretty long ago. i suppose i crapped and talked nonsense, haha. i wonder if i can get an A2. oh yeah my overall for end years was B3, and my mid years was B3 too, so it;s a B3 overall. too bad then. work for an A1 next year, starting from now! lol.

i do wish i could have done better for all the subjects, even those i failed, but ~it's too late~(APOLOGIZE HAHA) to do much now except to study and prepare myself well for the Os.

now i'm off to dinner~ if you read this thanks cos it's a really long boring post about my failures hah.