i am tired and disheveled. my hair is some unkempt mess, and feels kinda oily/greasy. Zzz.

on a higher point, i finished filing!(not quite, but whatever.)

why am i so tired?

i have a clogged up sweat gland in my eye and it resulted in a chalazion. it's almost like a pea is growing inside of your eyelid but it doesn't really hurt, only if i press it... basically it's a lump of material in my eyelid. glandular inflammation! if i had let it go on it might have gotten worse. my eye!!! it would have been swollen. so... luckily i went to the doctor? i have to put some weird eye ointment 3 times a day. it's sticky. very sticky. and makes my eyelid look shiny.

i hope it doesn't get bigger! what if i have to remove it? omg scary.

in the morning i had this weird bout of very very low self-confidence. something like that. it was strange, considering how happy i am these days, but that's just it. i have these huge pendulum-like mood swings it's awfully scary. and i'm not even having my period. which was why i used to think i was bipolar. which i don't think i am anymore because i don't turn violent and excessively moody and suicidal to manically happy and etc.

i know because i went to read about it. perhaps i am merely an angst ridden teenager.

i went to sit in the hammock just now and i overturned this wooden plank which had three potted plants sitting on it. luckily the pots are made of plastic and they are quite small. shouldn't have tried to swing. i think it's gonna fall very many more times because my dad will overturn it and i will forget and do it again. Zzz.

i want to sleep! i need to catch up with homework homework homework. am so tired of procrastinating already. i need to be good now. 0:) see my awesome halo LOL.

okay i just bought a teal dress and white skirt from claudia. HAHAHAHAH. she's bringing it tomorrow~

lol.

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okay. radical discipleship. serious. must. be. good.

p.s. i know this was an abrupt ending but um, i don't know how else to end it so HAHA.

bye!