i am scared.

and it is especially awkward to type this as my dad sings his chinese/hokkien/cantonese songs gaily.

well, he is scared also.

i, we, are scared that one day, my grandmother will fall asleep at the sofa and she just did and never wake up again, never laugh again, or even scold us in her sleepy daze.

or perhaps fall into a eternal sleep and not wake up in the morning.

shucks. i know it will happen but i am not prepared for it.

at least it is in her sleep, of natural causes and not of anything else.

i don't why the sudden fear thing.

i am tired. i dozed off during a math class and during chinese while we were going through the exam papers. sabrina had to tap on the shoulder to wake me up heh.

very tired. but i am sleeping so early. shannen said "life is a shit sandwich. just put more bread and you won't taste the shit." i found it extremely amusing and funny and laughed my head off in the bus on monday :D HAHA it is still funny.

oh but to see you again. clearer.