if you look at the last post, notice i moved from 'okay happy' to 'sad.'
that seemed bipolar to me.
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Wednesday, April 30, 2008
can i not be bipolar please.
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i'm supposed to be doing tuition homework, but argh. its english and english paper is over. ._. but then again she's preparin us for Olevels, not school exams. anyway. SS paper totally gone case. ): must score well for history to pass! sian lah confirm hopeless. even if i pass hist/ss i still have A&E maths. accident and emergency. XD Zzz. i'm kind of. like. being sad. 4 months? maybe 5? my record was 2 years. bipolar tendencies acting up leh. just slightly similar to bipolar. i ain't gonna shave my head or hit people. i kept looking to that stupid thing alexander graham bell invented. except it didn't have a cord. and it could send messages. which kind of spoilt everything. then i couldn't study SS properly. which lead to me screwing up the paper today. ahhhhh why so confusing one. so annoying. like i want but i don't want. i'm sorry if this confuses you but frankly it confuses me as well. i'd like to kill the person to took that piece of metal and batteries and chips. but i can't cos i don't know who? david cook and taylor swift, along with making april are with me now. but i think teardrops on my guitar will get irritating soon. haha. david cook<3 time can't erase a feeling this strong we never said what we were thinking so divine, this is happening. |
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David Cook - Always be My Baby We were as one babe You’ll always be a part of me I ain’t gonna cry no You’ll always be a part of me I know that you’ll be back girl You’ll always be a part of me You’ll always be a part of me (you will always be) Oh always be my baby… okay i demand everyone listen to this! david cook is amazing! XD *drools* ahaha david cook <3 |
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
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yesterday...i didnt know if the laugh or cry. then... amazing spoiler. okay anyway. kyle and joe got haircuts! ben now looks like evan almighty growing out the beard hahhahah. no im not joking. xD ethan looks like he needs a haircut. joey looks more or less the same with slightly longer hair. seriously i'd like to laugh at ben's hair when he comes. that is, if he doesnt cut it. if not, too bad? D: putting their hair aside, i just found out they have a tour edition cd! OMG someone get it for my birthday HAHAHAH okay you dont have to but if you do i'd love you many many (that is, if i love you already XD) okay social studies here i come to study you, you propaganda. |
Saturday, April 26, 2008
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RULES: _ Pick your birth month. _ Strike out anything that doesn't apply to you. _ Bold the five-ten that best apply to you. _ Copy to your own journal, with all twelve months under a lj-cut. _ Tag 5 people from your friends list. JANUARY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious. - FEBRUARY: Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizes dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions. - MARCH: Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves travelling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody. - APRIL: Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving. Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see. - MAY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and - JUNE: Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn. - JULY: Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover. - AUGUST: Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride in oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends. - SEPTEMBER: Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people's mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic. - OCTOBER: Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children. - NOVEMBER: Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable. Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable. - DECEMBER: Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egotistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical. I tag: Wahlim Bao Jayne Tanya Winnie |
CLICK OR SYDNEY!
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my mum, she polluted my mind, and told me i should save the 98 bucks i was going to spend on click's concert in sydney instead. and i know she's right but. omg now im hesitating to go for the concert! someone slap me! oh gosh. ohhhhhh gosh. ohhh man. dammit dammit dammit! I SO WANT TO WATCH CLICK BUT I WANT TO SPEND MONEY IN SYDNEY TOO. and dont tell me i'll have money in sydney. i wont, cos my parents wont give me any. okay may they'll give me like. 50 bucks. maybe God will bestow me with some money for sydney. or maybe not. my heart isnt right now. i know its like, ask and you will receive, but i've been such a bad girl. and i want the money for superficial reasons. this doesnt really fall into like, God's plans, right? argh how am i supposed to know what His plans are. okay okay. God, if you allow, let me have some money to spend in sydney. please and thank you. if not, its okay. i'll survive. thanks for letting me go to sydney in the first place. in Jesus' name, Amen. okay. i seriously need to like, breathe, okay. i'm going for click. i have to. i've been waiting for a long time now. okay. breathe. STUPID CLICK! WHY'D YOU HAVE TO COME IN JUNE! COME IN NOVEMBER, WHEN ALL IS FINE AND DANDY, IDIOTS! omg i'm going mad, literally. someone needs to slap me, then send me to the counsellor. kthxbai. |
Friday, April 25, 2008
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so...i guess. um. nothing to say, really. there was some saga over the explicit magazines yesterday. yup. then today i felt quite okay, happy even. like, the atmosphere was so relaxed. then someone ruined it lor. D: ah well. its a love-hate relationship with you man. you isnt a specific person, jsyk. so. its been quite an awesome 4 months. and it hurts less to look at you now, to think of you. perhaps i am letting you go. finally? i think this could be really good for me, perhaps you too. slowly, its getting better. (: ahhhh, its like multiple choice. a or b? lol. and now, its you. we talk alot more, but now. sighhh. come back, i want to see you. |
Saturday, April 19, 2008
THEY ARE COMING!
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i think the full force of click's coming has finally really really hit me. i want to go the airport! i want to make the radley poster that no teenie might understand. i want to make a poster for each of the guys that teenies wont understand too. i really am a mad fan, but thats okay. ;D its like, really amazing that i can actually go for the concert. and i actually have the money! oh wow. and i really want a m&g! D: i hope 987 holds a competition or something. im like, mad alr la. haha but at least i'm not feeling like crap now! xD i feel like screaming now. like, really really. they're coming. its gna be awesome. but this leads me to think about Jesus' next coming too. even though i dont know when he's going to come i'm going to try and prepare for it, just like i was anticipating click's coming. HAHA YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY |
Friday, April 18, 2008
bipolar again?
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i have already sat here 5 mins not typing anything. 10 mins. i don't know what to type. i have so many things to say though. but, this is public and everyone can see it. i'm just feeling very crappy. must be the pms. just let me wallow in misery and i'll get out of it soon. i'll be waiting for this chance then i'll be gone. |
Thursday, April 17, 2008
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did i seem emo in the last post? cos i was more of frustrated than emo. anyway. aiyah kena write mrs tobias' compo 6 times lor. cos we didnt do the stupid compo. and she in a lovely fit of anger sent us down to the GO. AND MS OW WAS THEREEEEE~ so she punished us by having us copy them 5 times over. watse of time! but my fault, cos i didnt do her work. i hope ms ow recycles the paper although im quite sure she wont. um. nothing more to type. i guess. oh i realise that i'm happy with just glances. but i shouldnt right! LOL. okay before this spirals into sadness, byebyeeeeeeeeee |
Monday, April 14, 2008
maybe?
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maybe my existence is not vital? maybe i've become more sensitive? maybe... you don't care? man. am currently hating this. banging on this piano like you care at all |
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we had a major change in seats today. *sniff* i didnt need to change seats though. now, lia's on my right, clarinda on my left, titus behind me, faris still in front. and the diagonal people are eugene(behind clarinda) paxton(in front clarinda) clement(in front lia) dickson(behind lia). yup. *sniffs again* boo hoo hoo. blah. LOL. anyway. jayne just made me fall in love with making april. lol. their lyrics/music are sad stuff. but nice. ;D there was a period of time around valentines that i wanted blue roses. check this out. The Blue Roses by Rookie of the Year Close the door & leave me inside I'll miss the fireworks burning in those eyes remember the songs that we use to sing come august I'll still be singing don't be the one, don't be the one to fall out of line watch the blue roses fall from your hands remember summer when we all had second chances some day you'll see, come august I'll still be singing don't be the one, don't be the one to fall out of line don't be the one, don't be the one to say goodbye i gotta get out of here you're so cold I've gotta get out of here someday those scribble lines will be straight conversations will never bare your name august came and left town you're such a beautiful sound i remember the days when you used to call my name i was so blind to think you'd be the one and blue roses on her tongue you, you were a beautiful sound you're such a beautiful sound don't be the one, don't be the one to fall out of line don' be the one, don't be the one to say goodbye I've gotta get out of here you're so cold I've gotta get out of here its what you wanted I've gotta get out of here you're so cold I've gotta get out of here goodbye, just proved to be too hard |
Saturday, April 12, 2008
cut off.
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so. i cut my hair into a lovely bob. so there. i hope you dont get a fright when you see me hahahahahaahahahahahahhaha. i think i look kiddy. like my 12 year old cousin. ._. |
Friday, April 11, 2008
bye.
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i wanted to blog about stuff like SDC and other stuff but now i dont really feel like it, so yeah. kinda sad. i always feel a little of what jayne is feeling! funny how the song she put up almost made me cry(parents were at home!) just like inevitable did. i dont know, i just want to give up most of the time. seems like fruitless waiting and self-induced hurt. it doesnt feel like its worth it. i dont even want to be involved anyway, so... i guess. i dont know. its such a stupid contridictory feeling. Wide Awake by Making April My mistake, you should never be afraid to cut your losses now I know, now I know It was mine to make, I was putting up a fight for worthless causes now I know, just to let it go I was dying for our moment to arrive now I'm running further just to feel alive Chorus: Don't wanna get caught up dreaming of your love cause when I open my eyes there's not a shot in this life I might as well give up and save all my good luck for when I've when I've got the extra change you can move aside cause now I'm wide awake Calling out you don't even pick it up on nights and weekends over and over Talk about not giving up for all the wrongest reasons over and over How was I mislead for so much time? when it's all been said and done I'll be alright Don't wanna get caught up dreaming of your love cause when I open my eyes there's not a shot in this life I might as well give up and save all my good luck for when I've when I've got the extra change you can move aside cause now I'm wide awake But is it getting any better yet? Is it getting any better yet? Well is it getting any better yet? The word is out that I'm not giving in and if you're ready by now well it's too late to begin Don't wanna get caught up dreaming of your love cause when I open my eyes Don't wanna get caught up dreaming of your love cause when I open my eyes there's not a shot in this life I might as well give up and save all my good luck for when I've when I've got the extra change you can move aside cause now I'm wide awake goodbye, i love you. |
Monday, April 07, 2008
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today mr chen the bio trainee had us play ultimate taboo. it was so fun and my team won!!! the eight of us got a packet of jellybeans each. so nice. i wna play ultimate taboo again!!! XD and there was no dance today. what a lovely start to the week. HAHAHAHHA and we're going to SDC tomorrow! so fun. yay! here's three-headed broadway star for you to see. its the funniest. watch it. you wont be disappointed! ;D |
Sunday, April 06, 2008
pissing la.
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i pissed my tuition teacher off, now my mum's breathing down my neck telling me to learn cheng yu. damn. Zzz. |
sports day, saturday and sunday.
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going to the doctor didnt really work, haha. i think my tonsils swelled or something. cos i could talk normally but whenever i swallowed or when the tonsils moved it hurt. quite badly. anyway, sports day! before that got some bad new and stuff. i was angry and sad and pissed and... Zzz i teared, almost cried. its annoying how they dont think how this will affect me. i want to go to sydney dammit its only that. why do you have to be so worked up and give me those little slips of paper to sign. its annoying. and depressing. its not like im involved in gang fights or i smoke or drink excessively or i cut myself or i have tattoos or other body piercings of sorts. its just my ear, which doesnt even have a stud in it. i hate this. anyway. went for lunch with tanya, wahlim, nisa and sherrie. ;D the stupid woman didnt want to cook the western dishes. she was like "aiyoh why you order western!" in chinese quite loudly even if she thought it was under her breath, which it wasnt. ._. and i bought cadbury boost. which i really shouldnt have cos my throat almost died right there and then. haha. but i feel like, more energy when i eat those stuff. should have asked my dad to buy bananas! XD okok skip to the run. i didnt think i would come in second, cos everybody was fast too. but i came in second! amazingxzxzxzx. i think its really God's work. i was like God i dont have to win if you dont want me to but i do want to win but at the same time i dont want to be obsessed with winning the thing, y'know? and He gave me a second! -screams- LOL. thankyou!!! but my right thigh muscle hurt after that! boo. got the deep heat spray from sjab before the 4x100. cindy helped me massage my leg lol. i was slower for that 100m lor! but thank God i was consistent. omg you should have seen chien nie she was so fast she overtook the sec 4/5 girl who was waaaaay in front of her. it was amazing man. WHOOHOO YOU GO GIRL! xD heheh sorry got excited. then got more deep heat rub from sjab, cheryl helping to massage the thigh this time. THANK YOU VERY MUCH CINDY AND CHERYL! ;D OH my mum wanted me to run with her for the parent/student race thing but i vehemently refused and i pointed to the guys who were just sitting in one big group nearby "there there! eugene!" HAHA but eugene didnt even run, cos he was wearing his ncc uniform. (._.) in the end brandon and paxton ran LOL. and they made my mum lose lor! brandon's horrible skiping skills done them in. and they made my mum run backwards, which is bad cos she was scared she would fall so she ran slowly. lol. oh then clement and edgar ran with alicia's mum and tzu tai and jasper ran with some father. it was pretty amusing. umm. i walked around with tanya a whole lot. AND ms lian called me and i thought she was going to give me another demerit but she didnt she gave me homework. haha. and she told me the new class rules, which suck. D: anddddddd then after the entire thing shannen wanted me to go home with her but she had to bring her instrument back to school and her bag was at school anyway and she couldnt smuggle me up the bus band had so i went home with my parents. naughty shannen. haha. then yesterday i skipped maths tuition!!~ woke up, called my teacher to tell her i couldnt go and went back for a little more Zzzs. Dad made banana choco cake with was fabbbbbb. haha i love the recipes he finds, cos its simple but still, very, very yummy. went to claudia's house to do homework but i didnt even finish it lor. we ended up doing the three headed broadway star game from whose line is it anyway? which was random and funny. xD claudia laughed so much her jaw cramped up. LOLL. shannen the rapping queen. i deleted one which claudia thought was funny. heh sorry laaaaa. xD and church today! <3<3<3> right im nuts. goodbye thennnnn! i'm open you're closed. |
Thursday, April 03, 2008
COMMON COLD! D:
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went to the polyclinic today. i'm not exactly really sick but i want to nip the problem in the bud before sports day. haha but i'm feeling more sick now than i was in the morning. my head hurts a little. stupid cold. go away... the doctor told me not to exert myself too much. or find a reserve. *snorts* reserve. tsk. no one will run at the last min. anyway there's 100m. no reserves for that one. oh well i'll just choing tmr and become more sick la. i hope i can skip tuition. my chinese teacher really nags to no end. D: how to tahan when im sick right? xD and her homework...omgosh. oh and my dad bought the pi pa koa thingy on sunday. i didnt realise it would be my best friend today. cos i dont like lozenges la. i slept after lunch haha. ohkay i'm gonna go bathe now. i think i have to go for tuition afterall. so i'll have to bathe and do her homework. how annoying. byeeeeeeeeeeeee. *coughs* i'm praying for you. for all of you. |
Tuesday, April 01, 2008
POP THE CHAMPAGNE!
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cos this is my 400th post! wow. never thought i'd get that far, but really, many of these posts are really really nonsense. haha. anyway, change of skin, i like this many many, hope you do too. ;D today we did some chemistry experiment. burn the magnesium ribbon, to react with oxygen. was cool, but really hot! like all the bunsen burners were on, and the fans were off. im stinking right now but im going to bathe in like, 3 min. haha. and i dont know why i dont really mind dance now. cos i take what the teacher tells us to do and turn it into something funny. like i pretend to be sexy or girly and i manipulate the actions, jazz them up. i even got ideas for my own choreography. haha cool. i have in my head like this really fun, broadway jazz kinda dance. whee so fun. and i really want (the dancers) to do grande battements while tiptoeing. it looks cool. hahahah gosh i really miss ballet. i need to go back!!! maybe i can like join bianca's class, she's at braddell heights CC right? but i saw on her blog that it was on thurs and sats. i have tuition on thurs. boo. maybe i can only go back when i finally am done with those darned O levels. HAHA. i like this post today. i dont know why but i feel like jasmine ee now. HAHA HI TO YOU IF YOU'RE READING THIS! xD so yeah. i'm going to bathe now. 3 min over time. |
