night cycling from friday-saturday. almost 7 hrs of cycling. i had tuition after the event and stayed awake for like 30hrs. it was good.

but when i got back to school things werent so good. not much of it has to do with me but you messed with my friend you messed with her head and her emotions i hate you seriously ugh this is so frustrating.

and click. idk what to say anymore ): everyone who knows me associate me (and wahlim) to being these insane fans of the click five and faris said something last week which pissed me off cos he said we wouldnt last long as fans wtf is your problem you dont know anything but seeing as how you're faris i shall let you off. your ignorance saved you. for now.

why click why. so disappointing.

still not studying why i dont even care that the exams are in a few days i cant believe myself why am i so lazy. why do i not care. what if i get retained. how can i turn this around when this feels so hopeless.

i miss being carefree but this is my fault anyway i seem to always regret thing i dont do in terms of my education. i was disappointed with my psle scores do i want to disappointed with my O level scores as well? i never learn, do i.

someone please shoot me. im lucky to be in singapore getting good education and enjoying the security why to i complain so much why. i wish the exams wouldnt come i wish i had more time to practice maths the world is filled with what ifs.

everyday is a blessing i could be dead tomorrow. why dont i live everyday to what its worth? self bashing yes but i deserve this i do really dont try to tell me i dont i know what i've done. i screw things up for myself thats what i do. dont want to retain. i want to be able to do this.

i also what you to disappear from my head. please just get out it's been so long it's getting old.

if any of my irl friends read this can you remind me to do homework, buck up, revise, whatever? go on study dates with me? i need this. i need your help i cant do this on my own. i want to get out of this hole and my internet bbz ily but i dont think i should hang around until after the exams. i know i wont be able to do anything if i'm online. but i BABA J00 you know that.

<3

hopefully i wont be a mess when i get back.

i am boring.

kthxbai.

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so.

i'm a little sick now, and it's annoying me because i do not want to be sick. but i suppose it can't be helped, germs are flying all around the school. i guess i'll just drink a gallon of water. of course not all at once, i wouldn't want the water to go into my cells by osmosis and burst would i. my nose threatens to kill me. i hate having blocked/runny nose. my nose is now both, it's leaking yet it's blocked. what is this.

okay so telling myself this morning that i would do some add math didn't work out. i'll try again tomorrow. today during ssp i managed to do 8 questions so i'm very happy even though i had loads of help from sabrina. thanks love! ms tan was uber funny because she was like "wah why you sit with her become so smart?" lol.

i should sit with focused people to focus on what i'm supposed to do. mr lim said we shouldn't study in mcds and all but i think the multitude of distractions help because i don't know what i'd be distracted by so i focus on my work instead. reverse physcology much. but whatever. hopefully i'll overcome this stupid not doing homework obstacle. much i seem to not want to do homework, i do. it's just that i lack the motivation to do it. am working on it.

my nose is seriously leaking HOW!

i thought of doing a clique fic. should be interesting but i have no idea where to start. i shall think about it more but my attention is mainly on daydreaming about a hot angmoh boyfriend. who dances. fail. i dream too much, my head's in the clouds. so unhealthy.

anyway after add maths and after shannen's detention we went to rivervale mall to eat our very late lunch and we bought too much food which resulted in aching tummies and leftover food. we also talked for a very long time, like, till 6+ then we went back home and then when i got home i told my dad i couldn't eat, i was too full. it's 8.48pm now and i'm still pretty full.

i have to perform tomorrow for the mid-autumn/mooncake festival for chinese dance. i wouldn't have to if i had a junior to take my place but my lovely juniors have been snapped up by the rest and the other not-so-lovely juniors are those who don't come for dance. even if they do, they just come and watch us. it's annoying because even though i perform and all that md liang doesn't realise when i do go for dance i actually dance and i don't do nothing. not against the juniors though, dance is really boring. i wish our teacher didn't have an obsession with animals this year, she taught us the fish dance and she wants us to dance some bird(swallow) dance for the syf next year. it's so stupid because we'd actually have to have the style of the amazing china dancers to pull off that dance because it's so traditionally chinese and we just can't get the style. she doesn't seem to realise though.

it's very frustrating. no one likes the dance.

okay i feel opinionless right now lol. and thought-less. nothing to share with my non exsistant readers heh. bye~

edit: hmm. as an after-thought, i shall say that. uhm. okay so i still have nothing to say. wait yes i do. have i mentioned i love bao for the icon of jimmy's arse? well i do. <3

oh crap.

i thought i was over it, but i guess not. i think i wont be able to get over this for a very, very, long time.

sucks much.

yes. cramps are ultimate bitches. i took those idiotic pannadols which are presumably only working now, after i went to bathe with the hot water helping a little to relax those contracting muscles. i heard chamomile tea helps, so i had a cuppa. without sugar and it tastes disgusting.

blg cd is on repeat right now! bought the cd might as well play it. bryan's tattoo is cool heh. should have taken photos of blg but i forgot. tsk.

i have saw loser though. but no nice ones of matt cos he was hiding behind the drums. ocrap cramps acting up again. lets see if jimmy can distract me.



*drools* his ass is awesome. xD



hottttt.



matty, jimmy's brother. SO QT.



OIC YOU SHIRTLESS.



sam, whose face blends in with his hair.



masashi, who pespires like he pees. heh.



OMG ARE YOU PEEING ON MATT'S DRUMS?!?!

oh i just remembered i listened to pug jelly back when i was 12 and listening to 987fm. lol.



jimmy<3

awesome. jimmy distracts! xD

guys should totally thank their lucky stars that they dont get cramps, srsly.

my bad, sl was at fort canning park. now not laughtastic alr. but nevermind.

and hist ssp was for clarifying doubts, so sabrina skipped it, and so did i! 8D

met cyn and bao at cine at burger king. i tell you i'm like some lost idk what thing in orchard. town idiot. cyn got me my cd first, which cost 20 bucks, and the cd signing was over in a flash. next thing i knew, my new cd had four signatures on it. the guys left in their van, as usual and i waved to the blond guy who is uh, bryan. and i think paul's hot xD hmm, it's high time i ought to listen to them anyway. oh bao spotted martin's boxers. they were blue. LOL BAO ONLY LOOK AT THIS KINDS OF THINGS EH? 8D

then afterwards we had time to kill so we decided to go to borders but got distracted by mc cafe so we bought drinks, sat down and listened to brendon sing something that sounded a lot like "cynthiaaaaaa" in the nails for breakfast, tacks for snacks demo. awesome cool shizz lol.

then we went to borders and couldnt find AP then donna called and said she could come! :D the sad thing is cynthia's dad wanted to visit them and her kid sister decided to be a bitch-in-training and rat on her if she had to. stupid. in the end cynthia didnt join us. then i called mum and she made some deal with me and let me go yay!

we met monica at dhoby ghaut then huijun joined us while we were walking there. the tickets were 15 bucks! got a light stick too. then i had to pee and donna went with me and we saw sam outside the dressing room which is near the toilet so after i peed she called bao and asked them to come over but we were wimps and didnt dare to go ask for an autograph and a video for cyn. anyway sam was flirting with some chick in pink who laughed pretty much like a bimbo.

after that we went down to the stage again. then we saw like many many people at the dressing room again so we went up again but we were wimps again so we pretended to go to the toilet then we went out and saw jimmy! huijun dared to ask for an autograph yay and he was really nice and signed. he was smoking/drinking beer. tsk. bao, she got bored of her green tea after seeing the tiger beer -_-" anyway monica asked him why they were going on indefinite hiatus and he like got totally emotional and all. it was so sad. D: he looked like he was gonna break down then it was really weird cos i wanted to give him a hug but like so weird cos he's like this big muscled guy lol but he really looked sad. and he told us he was going to berklee college of music then i looked at bao and i was like LOL CLICK.

OMG I CANT BELIEVE JIMMY LOOKS OLDER THAN KYLE. jimmy's only 20. kyle is 22. tsk jimmy you should really stop smoking. makes you look old!

then we asked for a video and jimmy helped us get all the guys out. they thought we were taking a photo at first lol then they realised it was a video XD btw they messed up leeyee's name haha. huijun got the rest of the auotgraphs too! oh she was wearing this thingy that asked for guitar picks and i think it was jimmy who gave one to her. so nice. masashi wrote her name on the paper so cool right.

in any case, they were awesome. i'd like to think that jimmy waved to me when they were setting up, and not to those teenie fans who loved sam more than jimmy. -_-"

i love jimmy more than sam. tsk. stupid milo peng. you could really tell jimmy was really sad at them taking a break.

in any case, they were absolutely stunning and i love themmmmmm. especially jimmy. <3 plus his brother matty is v hot too. heh.

right, i have to sleep now. i cant believe i spent one day typing this in between tutition and cca.

i'm horribly bored.

dnw school. i want to go for blg cd signing and saw loser last show today with sg clique girls. i havent asked mum and highly doubt she'll allow.

what a bummer. if i really am going, i'll need cash too. 17 bucks for sl entrance fee and 19 bucks for blg cd. should have bought it yesterday at popular cd rama. didnt buy anything in the end anyway.

sigh panic. *sniffs*

also, i need to make a choice. it aint as easy as it looks!

plus, i miss cait terribly. i hope she gets her internet in about two weeks time, and has settled down in the U S of A comfortably. L.A sounds very big and city like. very business type people. not fun like new york though. hmm.

blg and saw loser. oh sl's at the padang. very laughtastic x3