But I can't deny God's been at work in my life.
Last Monday I blogged
And I went to sleep after doing quite a bit of work, deciding to wake up earlier to do some more before attachment, cos I still had to tutor my cousin after that. So I did wake up early, but I didn't manage to do any work = = Okay the point is, my aunt fb messaged me, said my cousin was going out, and when was I free to tutor her? And so my Tuesday was freed up. My assignment was due on Wednesday. In the end I completed it, although it was slipshod and I didn't put a whole lot of effort into it, but given my tendency to procrastinate, I really don't know what would have happened without the extra time.
I was bathing, and I thought, this sucks, I still have the assignment to complete, God help me please? Then wondering if I was too much, and if he'd really help me when I need it.
That's the first thing. Something I kinda asked God for and He answered. And the only conclusion I can come up with is He's drawing me back? I think I want to but I'm scared of disappointing Him and myself again (and sometimes, I feel like the disappointing myself overrides the disappointing Him...)
The next thing.
We(I have a friend doing attachment on Tues with me) were supposed to have our field practicum(FP) supervisors over to our attachment centres to observe implementation of our Music and Movement lesson plans. So we had 2 Tuesdays scheduled to do it, one for the supervisor, and the other is a different lesson plan for the mentor to evaluate. The FP supervisor initially said okay for 14 Dec, but then she emailed again saying she wasn't free. I got pretty pissed off, cos now we had to find another day for her to come over and I didn't want 7 Dec cos it was too fast ;_; Anyway we could do this Friday, cos we don't have class every Friday.
And she agreed, so I was like okay at least we have a bit of time to compose ourselves and maybe practice or something on Tues, but I fell sick.
Imagine if she was coming tomorrow. I'd be a goner. How to be lively and conduct class and not spread my germs around all at the same time?
Feels a lot like God making her busy on the Tuesday and being free on the Friday and arranging everything BEFORE I got sick.
Doesn't seem like coincidence to me.
So. I realised like last night for the Fp supervisor thing? And for the assignment one... I thought of it and then I kinda tried ignoring it, and I didn't get to blog about it either, but now that both have happened ow can I pass off either of these as just a mere mortal coincidence?
I think I'm going to need a change in my attitude.
One step at a time, too much at once can be very overwhelming.
But I'm feeling hopeful. Sorta excited, really. Kinda re-established the fact that God is very very real.
I know it's a lot of words here, but if you read everything, CONGRATS! Uh, I have nothing left to say. I need to do my lesson plan for the FP supervisor by today, but first I'm going to prayyyyyy~