It's not that my lesson plan went really well, in fact, it was quite similar to the previous one.
I was kinda defeated at the end, but my field prac supervisor is soooooooooo nice! She pointed out things that she thought I did well, and I didn't even consider it as a good point. She was really understanding, and she said at the end that she didn't want this experience to affect me.
I'm so thankful and grateful for her, serious. At first I thought she might be pretty strict cos she has like really good posture lol and was sitting ramrod straight on the chair. Wowzers, even me, a dancer, don't do that. I mean, a former dancer = =
So anyway I have sort of a love/hate opinion of my mentor. Actually not really love/hate more like okay/frustrated. She doesn't know what's going on half the time and we have to tell her what's going on, mainly me cos my friend is also clueless. Which is like weird cos I'm supposed to be the one that doesn't know anything.
She asked if she had to assess us = = LIKE DUH then we do for what sia! And then she asked if she was supposed to give us her evaluation of the lesson and I was like DUH NO okay I didn't say DUH la. Seriously though.
And then my friend is like, kinda irresponsible? She left me to email the field prac sup after the sup first told us she wasn't free on the 14th. I didn't reply at first, and the sup emailed again asking if we had received the email, and I was thinking, why didn't G email her, I thought she was quite responsible one?
Maybe she puts in more effort in doing the lesson plan, making the lesson fun, and maybe she starts her assignments earlier, but at the attachment and stuff I get kinda pissed. And then now I feel guilty cos I remembered that she has some family issues.
BUT LIKE, cannot excuse her all the time right? It's really sad, I know, but she has to live with it. But I'll definitely be more tactful around that sensitive issue.
Aiyah IDK. In the shower I was like, I wanna get a better GPA than her.
Why so competitive against someone else, and not myself?
Anyway I think I'm pretty good at writing reflections. LOL. Or maybe it's called being good at writing what the mentor/lecturer/FP sup wants to see, heehee
anyway, mentor. I know I have a lotof things I could improve on, but seriously, no words of encouragement? No understanding of the fact that it's my first time implementing a music and movement lesson? And also that G was working at the centre and therefore the kids know her better?
She tried saying something nice, but it just felt patronizing. She said she enjoyed G's lesson, it was interesting, then she said actually, both are interesting, just that I didn't have as much of a success in implementing it as compared to G
MAKE ME DOUBT MYSELF ONLY
I feel so annoyed at the fact that the principal hired my friend. Damn annoyed. Can you tell I'm trying not to swear? I already have in my mind, but typing it out makes it feel so concrete. I tell myself I can't be bothered, I don't care for that centre anyway, I dunno how they teach those kids to be so stupid. Some keep calling G teacher Pavee instead of teacher G, and some anyhow call me. Caden can never remember my name.
So difficult to remember meh? And wtf, cannot even differentiate between G and tr. Pavee? G is like so dark skinned and tr. P is like fairer. Just cos they're both Indians = =
THE KIDS ARE RACIST OR WHAT.
I'm being so crazy Zzz.
Ms R is really niceeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
And the FP lecturer Ms mona is actually pretty nice, we thought she was fierce and stuff, esp on the first couple of weeks. She gave us gifts today! O: Cute paperclip things and chocolate and a mini chupa chup! So nice!
oh and I painted the tops of the shakers all black. The kids were fighting over colours the last time so I eliminated that problem. HA TAKE THAT LITTLE BUGGERS
but they still fought over the shkers ;_; seriously, I really want to slap those kids. Can't even help me a bit and listen to me.
The toddlers were so excited to see me! AHHH I love them so much. Mabel and Chloe ♥♥♥
G's going back to the centre on tuesday, I wanna go and see the toddlers! NO K1 or K2 NO NO NO
Sigh. This post don't make much sense
I have 2 grp assignments and 1 individual. The individual one is a huge assignment, but it's like only 30% = =but still must do well Zzz
okay reflection time for realz now goobye